Wednesday, September 30, 2009 ♥
Earthquake tremors felt! ♥ 6:35 PM
After 22 years on Earth, this is the first time I felt tremors. Always wanted to know how it felt like. Surprisingly, nothing shocking. Maybe because it wasn't extreme enough. I could see my full length mirror moving, my chandelier was shaking and when I sat down, I found myself swaying. And I thought it was because I took my medication for cough and the drowsiness was just kicking in. I know, super -___-".
Then my dad and brother started exclaiming earthquake tremors! I must be really numbed by the medication because I was like, Oh, so it wasn't my medicine that caused it and then continued looking through my clothes to find something to wear for service later (which I didn't go in the end anyway because there was earthquake tremors in my head.)
Nothing fantastic but worth a lifetime experience. Now, I want to feel an earthquake but not the after effects:)
♥ Princess Serene
Monday, September 21, 2009 ♥
Back in Singapore ♥ 4:22 PM
I haven't made a proper decision yet but I found myself back in Singapore. The last few weeks had been spent on so many once in a life time experience. Like going North, South and East of Perth on road trips, my parents coming over to visit, my graduation and random events. Fabulous memories and long car rides. I have a backlog of over a thousand pictures and for that I apologise for not uploading. You see, my laptop seemed to choose the best time to die on me. Perhaps it couldn't take my abuse anymore.
I thought I have plenty of time to think about my future. Those road trips at high speeds are almost my way of relieving my stress and to let me calm down to think. Yet, things doesn't always go my way and I am always back to square one. Therefore, I am just gonna wait it out. God will provide afterall. I just hope those decisions I had made were of sound ones. I'm scared but I know I will pull through.
I finally signed up for Sydney theolo. After much hesitation, what really made my decision was that no one died attending theolo anyway and if everybody says it is good, I should try. They say curiosity killed the cat but I'm ain't no cat:)
Up to now, I have not decided to stay in Singapore for good or to go back to Perth. What irks me the most is people asking me whether I am working or not. Just STOP ASKING ME!!! I know it is out of concern to ask but I have no answers for you.
Right now, all I want to do is to have a proper holiday. That's right, you heard me. I want to just do absolutely NOTHING. Yes, not even shopping. Ok, maybe not. Just a tiny bit. The last few trips were kinda of stress because I had to drive (6 people's lives in my hand), find places I had never been before, plan the holiday. So, now that I am back home, I will lie by the poolside all the time catching up with books that I want to read. Probably get bored after awhile so there would be dinners with friends:) Of course, time would be spent with my dearest piano:) And there is my goal to lose 2 kg in a month. I am just wondering how I can do it with all the food I had been wanting to eat. I NEED A FREAKING DOG so I can walk it!!!
Anyway, isn't it strange that when you least want something, it happens to you. But the more you look for it, it wouldn't appear?
Well, for the moment, I will just want to chill.
P.s: Will update blog as soon as poosible! Have truckloads of pictures!
♥ Princess Serene
Tuesday, August 25, 2009 ♥
Puppy! ♥ 11:43 PM
You know you really really want a dog when you are thinking about them in your dreams. Last night, I dreamt that I have this cutest fluffiest black and brown Rottweiler. I'm pretty sure it was a Rottweiler. There isn't such thing as a black Golden retriever after all right? I even dreamt that I cuddled it and it was licking my face. Hang on, he has a name. No it's not Max but some cutesy name. Must be Peter or Cookie or something like that. Mmm.. I really want a dog you know! Even my sub conscience might won't let that idea go! When oh when can I have a dog?
P.s: Paul got hit really bad at Krav tonight! He is sporting a black eye at the end of the session:/ No, I didn't give it to him. Poor Roberto must be feeling so bad right now. Thank God he always go easy on me when he partners up with me!
♥ Princess Serene
Sunday, August 09, 2009 ♥
A good dream ♥ 11:11 PM
leads to a good day:)
Had a good sleep and a pretty awesome dream just now:) Plus my foot is much better so overall my day is rated 8 out of 10:)
The weatherman lied though! It was meant to be raining but it was nice and sunny but since I told my friend that I wouldn't go freo anymore, I stayed at home. It's a nice feeling to stay at home once in a while and quieten myself after days and days of going out the whole day.
Since my foot still kinda of hurt, I decided to stay at home and write letters long overdue for a reply. I feel that writing a letter is waaaay more personal than writing an email as most of you would agree. Well, unless you are a guy but then I think that guys secretly enjoy receiving letters just that they think that it is too gay to admit so. But seriously! It feels nice, warm and fuzzy to get something from someone from the letter box right??? I wrote so many that I felt like I was writing an exam! But an enjoyable one that I know all the answers to:)
I know I have so many :) in this entry but I can't help it. Feeling happy at the moment. No nightmares:) Well, when was the last time you wrote a letter to your close friends? I think I am about to start a new trend! Go write a letter to a friend today... Unless you don't have friends:P Ok, kidding, you can still write to your parents. Pretty sure they will appreciate it.
Postage is gonna kill me though! But as long as people are happy:)
P/s: Basketball was awesome until the end of the game when I remembered that my foot hurts! Fun irregardless that I can't even shoot a hoop properly because I get to shove people:P
P/s/s: I can't believe I'm so retarded at Solitaire showdown now!! Wilson owned my face 16 times and I won the last round because he let me! I need training buddies please!
♥ Princess Serene
Tuesday, August 04, 2009 ♥
Trying to push away the truth to a corner ♥ 9:36 PM
With the purpose of seeing the doctor this morning for my foot before going to work, I woke up at an insane time of 7.30am. For the record, I don't normally wake up at such an unearthly hour primarily for the very reason that I am never a morning person.
It was a surprise then to receive a call from overseas. I know it's overseas because my caller id shows 'Unknown' and I knew that it is either my parents or Ah Ling. The only people who will actually call my phone. Well, for the most of the time anyway. Nice to hear from Ah Ling but at such a early time and her tone, I knew something was wrong even though I don't really want to know. Some times I wish I hadn't woke up so early and then I wouldn't have answered that call. But then again, I suppose she will call till I pick up anyway.
At first, I thought it was boys problem until she asked whether my parents told me the news or not. I could roughly guess what she was going to tell me next although deep in my heart, I refused to believe until she tells me. Ok, she told me. What next? In my daze, I called my parents to see that they are alright. To me, it was too early, the news hasn't really sunk in yet. Besides, today is a freaking busy day for me. I guess in the way, it is good. I won't have time to stop and think. Not that I want to anyway. People called out of concern and I nonchalantly said I am fine which technically I was and I was saying it so that I can get off the phone and not think about it anyway.
The whole day passed by with my foot feeling sore, heaps of work done, meeting the weirdest people, got back my beloved violin, cooked a pretty awesome dinner( first try at making laksa), showered and about to get started on preparing for my bible study.
Finally, I had time to sit down or rather stand under the shower. I don't know. It was a sudden realization that she is gone. I will never see her ever again. This morning, it was merely like a piece of news that I set aside because I had too much things to do. Almost like it wasn't of importance to me. Perhaps shock does helps cushion the blow. Or maybe, it was so early in the morning, I thought I am still dreaming a bad dream.
Sure, I had mentally prepared myself that I probably will never see her again when I next go back. My mom told me she is deteriorating. But I guess I was not prepared enough. Today wasn't that hard to pretend everything was good with the worst thing happening to me at the moment was I had to limp around. Every time that thought comes to my mind, I just push it away. Tomorrow? I am not sure that I can hold my composure. But I believe I am strong. I can do it. After all life have to go on. In fact, I should be happy that she isn't suffering anymore. Life must suck lying in bed 24/7. She's gone to a place where she can walk and laugh and eat whatever she wants(I know in heaven we don't need to eat and sleep but I guess if she really wants to she can).
Just merely one and a half years ago, she was there smiling with me. And always asking about me. To her, I'm a granddaughter going overseas to study and occasionally calling back to say hi. Because we have a language barrier, her form of showing concern to me was giving me fruits and veggies I love and asking whether I had eaten.
I have no regrets not spending time with her because I did my best. I spent most of my summer with her anyway. Singing hymns and praying with her and talking to her and massaging her in hopes that she feels better.
I can't help but still cry. Yes, it's ok to cry I know. I'm gonna cry so hard that the tears will wash away the sadness and in some way find comfort that she is happy up there. So that tomorrow, I can wake up and go on with life. In my heart I want to remember grandma as a smiley happy person but knowing that grandma will never get well and laugh her hearty laugh and rescue me from those weird insects and will never come back makes me miss her already.
♥ Princess Serene
Sunday, August 02, 2009 ♥
Fell down the stairs ♥ 10:35 PM
I suppose one major injury that is going to leave me limping for days after 3 years of staying here is not that bad after all. I told you I'm an optimistic person:) BUT it's DAMN PAINFUL! The skin didn't get cut through even though the stairs are kind of sharp. And being not carpeted made it even worst.
It's so painful I keep waking up at night from the pain. I suppose it's a good thing that I'm the kind who can keep falling back to sleep anyway:)
Want to see something super gross?
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Don't say I didn't warn you. It's pretty bad.
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Damn gross right? Thank God, shock helps in keeping the pain away for awhile but after it wear off, it hurts like hell. I could even see the blood flowing under my skin! Quite amusing until the pain kicks in.
And I have to go work tomorrow!!! Well, if it is still painful, I guess I will see doctor on Tuesday:/
♥ Princess Serene
Monday, July 20, 2009 ♥
Drama ensues! ♥ 9:48 PM
I think I was in shock that I forgot to take photos!!! Shame because how often do you get your car window broken?
The funniest thing (well, not funny at that time) was that I went to work in the morning and kept cranking up the heater wondering why it was still so freaking cold. And I kept hearing the wind coming through the window but I thought it was because someone forgotten to close a window so I closed every window but strangely the whistling sound was still there.
Told you I was never a morning person. It took me some time to realize that the window at the back passenger seat was broken-_-" And of all things, they decided to steal my bible bag. *sighs* MY PINK BIBLE!!!! Plus irreplaceable bookmarks from brothers and sisters. Whoever stole my bible and hymnbook better REPENT!!! Why o why did you choose a rainy day to break my window???
Never had such a thing happened to me and thank God Tash decided to take leave from work so she could help me with researching. Guys, don't ever go to O'briens unless you are covered by insurance. They are super expensive and a rip off!
Thank God at the end of the day, everything is fixed and I get my car back on the same day! Can't imagine not living with my baby. I'm exhausted.
♥ Princess Serene
